In the Spring of 1990, I was
lying on my bed.....meditating. Just relaxing my mind
and body.....enjoying the nothingness of the alpha
state. I wasn't asleep....I could hear sounds from
outside my window. But I was not fully awake. I was
in that place in-between....that's the only way I
can think to describe it.
In my mind's eye....there was perfect darkness....I
was completely still. That's when I heard myself ask
the question...."God, are you there?" I didn't plan
to meditate on God. I didn't plan on asking any questions.....but
yet here I was hearing myself ask the question. The
darkness was gently interrupted by the most beautiful
figure. It was in the distance....existing only by
itself..... surrounded by the perfect darkness. It
was the figure of a person. What I mean by that is
that it had a head, body, arms and legs. But it had
no other distinguishing features....just a figure
that illuminated the darkness with the most beautiful
color of blue that I have ever seen. Yet it was unmistakeably
perfect in every way.
In my mind's eye, it started to come closer to me.
Once again, I heard myself ask the question, "Is that
you God?" It slowly moved toward me until it was right
in front of me. I was amazed by the brilliance! I
couldn't take my eyes off of this figure standing
before me. And then, like an explosion in my mind,
it flew right into me! My ears hummed and the darkness
was brilliant white light! I was filled with the most
powerful feelings of perfect bliss! The next thing
I knew I was standing in the middle of the room! I
was laughing and crying at the same time! Every hair
on my body was standing on end! Every cell of my body
was vibrating with the most wonderful sensations of
love and joy and happiness!
If you could take all of the positive emotions, multiply
them a hundred times, roll them up into one.....and
administer them with the speed of electricity, that
doesn't even come close to what I was feeling! I just
stood there in the middle of the room and all I could
do was say, "Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!" After
awhile, the feelings started to subside. I began to
become aware of what had just happened to me. I couldn't
believe it! My mind started attempting to rationalize
the experience. But, there was no way to explain it
away. It happened. The most important day of my life.
The day that I was given the knowledge that God does
exist. Not only does He exist, but there is a little
piece of Him in all of us. God is very real.
Now....you take this for what it's worth to you. And
if you think I'm crazy....well....I am what I am.
The painting that is on the front cover of the "Sending
The Love" CD is a feeble human attempt of mine to
recall my experience with a brush and paint. I never
painted before this attempt....but I knew I had to
try. "There is a little light that exists in all of
us. Some of us have turned it off....some of us have
forgotten about it completely....and yet it will always
be there. The time has come to find that Light of
Love within you....and let it shine."